AWWWW MAN!
I SHOULD HAVE NOT LEFT MY PHONE IN SILENT MODE! MOREOVER THERE WASN'T ANY VIBRATIONS!
SEEEE, I MISSED THE CHANCE TO HEAR HIS VOICE!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
EH NOT FUNNY! I'M SAD! TSK!
:(

Surprisingly he actually called instead of texting me. Cos in the message I sent him few days back, I had said "Jas, call/msg asap". And he actually called! Heh heh heh :D Was confiding in Teckyi when I realised his miscall so I told him about it and he asked me to call Jason back. Unfortunately, I'm shy. And scared too. So I texted him. Booooos to Izaa!

BUT(!) I should not pin high hopes. I don't want to get hurt again. After what Joanna had done to me for twice, that is giving me hope that our friendship will be alright, I've now learnt my lesson.

Thank you God & Jonas, for making me smile once again (though jason didnt reply my last message. tsk!) Hope he'll reply tomorrow, or later. :)



Haha, I like this photo. Cos looking at him makes me laugh. I don't know why though. Hahaha. I think this was in the year 2007?

Look below, see the changes in him over the years.




Top Left to Right : 2006/Early 2007 , 2007
Bottom Left to Right : Late 2007/Early 2008 , 2008

See how much he's changed? Apparently he's getting skinnier now. But now that he's in the army, I can see muscles developing. Yay! :D

Well I'm touched, by how he had somewhat comforted and clarified with me just now - Sweet and gentleman-ish. As always. Hehehehe.
I ♥ you, Warlock! :)

Anyways, hmmm. He has yet to reply to my last message which I had said "They can somehow find out, in a way or another. Then who knows they'd think by me confiding in you, I'm breaking the siblings bond between you and Joanna". Why did I mention that part? Because it's written in Alicia's blog that I'm breaking the bonds. (if the whole post is meant for me that is) Now I'm thinking that Jason is conspiring with the rest to go against me and is staying friends with me just to get infos since I tell him everything. Sighhhh.


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Izaalee. says (9:18 PM):
eh could it be that this jason is still friends with me just because they want him to, just to get infos from me?
Teckyi. says (9:19 PM):
aiyaaaa you think?
i think he still friend with you lah.
he really that bad meh?
Izaalee. says (9:19 PM):
i dont know seh
cos joanna, my exbestfriend, is his sister
and joanna and co, is starting to hate m
e
Teckyi. says (9:20 PM):
ok tell you what!
promise me this.
Izaalee. says (9:20 PM):
what thing?
Teckyi. says (9:20 PM):
dont think too much, can?
(:
Teckyi. says (9:21 PM):
life has to go on no matter what, no point thinking so much.
Izaalee. says (9:22 PM):
and this comes from you?
HAHAHAHAHA
Teckyi. says (9:22 PM):
hahahah ye lah
i know lame.
kla nvm forget it
Izaalee. says (9:24 PM):
you know just now before buka, i was already typing out the msg that i thought of sending to jason, telling him im going to let him go and all that. then didnt have much time, i had to go buka so i saved the msg as draft. then after buka, i had to layan my nephew. then i came online, confided in you. thought of asking whether to send or not then i forgot. then skali, jason called.
i thank God for this seh
Teckyi. says (9:25 PM):
hahaha
wuhooo all in all, im the best!
you know the world needs me!
hahahahaha
Izaalee. says (9:25 PM):
the world? more like all the girls in the world lor
HAHAHAHA
Teckyi. says (9:26 PM):
haha what the -.-
the girls need me?
HHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHA
Izaalee. says (9:27 PM):
hahahahaahahahahahah
eh excluding me k!
hahaha
Teckyi. says (9:28 PM):
hahahahahahahahhhh whatever ah izaa
Izaalee. says (9:29 PM):
hahahahaahah eh perasan jugak eh ni budak
HAHAHAHAHA
Teckyi. says (9:29 PM):
standard ah
ahahaha
Izaalee. says (9:29 PM):
hahahaha tsk tsk
Izaalee. says (9:30 PM):
you know when i msg him and told him that im afraid they would think im breaking the sibling bond between him and joanna, he never reply. cos its from alicia's blog then im thinking that maybe jason is planning with joanna and the rest
hehehe
k i know im thinking too much
but sitll
still*
Izaalee. says (9:31 PM):
im just scared lah
and im still thinking that hes staying as my friend just to get infos. cos i tell him everything
hahahaha
k alamak
i sound stupid
Teckyi. says (9:31 PM):
see you're thinking TOO much
Izaalee. says (9:32 PM):
not as if i know whats going on behind my back right
Teckyi. says (9:33 PM):
like i said, stop thinking so much!
Izaalee. says (9:36 PM):
i cannot help it lor.
hmmm.
kk i try i try
dont angry please
sorry lah brother
Teckyi. says (9:36 PM):
hahah make sure you try tau
before i smack your face



Hahahaha. Thank you ah Brother. But I still am thinking too much! HAHAHA. Please don't be mad. Hehehe. I love you k minah! :D


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Izaalee. says (12:13 AM):
i think he told them?
otherwise, how they know
i mean
Izaalee. says (12:14 AM):
whats up with the "you-have-your-own-family" .............
and saying that im breaking siblings bond
in alicia's blog
its either jason told joanna or joanna reads jason's inbox
cos she told me she did
Johanna says (12:15 AM):
hmm.
dont think so much already! hm
cause there's no way to clarify right
unless you ask
Izaalee. says (12:15 AM):
im figuring out the possibilities
and also when i mention about breaking bonds to jason, hes not reply.
replying*
never erply*
Izaalee. says (12:16 AM):
reply*
k shit
urgh
i dont know ah
Johanna says (12:17 AM):
hmm. maybe he's busy or what.. hmm
relaaax.
idk ehhh. but he said it'll be okay right
Izaalee. says (12:19 AM):
he said they wont know. and he once told me he wont tell
unless they conspire!
tsk
haiz
Johanna says (12:19 AM):
but why will he tell?
Izaalee. says (12:19 AM):
got influenced by joanna to hate me?
Johanna says (12:20 AM):
hmm.
but you mean she will specially go to his room sit down and talk to him about such stuff meh
hate isvery strong
Izaalee. says (12:22 AM):
idk, eventhough she told me my problem with her is ours and wont interfere with my friendship with jason
no idea if she can still be trusted
Johanna says (12:56 AM):
sry dear on the phone
Izaalee. says (12:57 AM):
its ok
Johanna says (12:57 AM):
anw,i think joanna wont be like that de ba?
i mean why will she ?
Izaalee. says (12:58 AM):
maybe she will, and maybe not
sigh
i dont want to think anymore
i just want to be free
feel free
though i want jason back
i dont know
how to feel
and waht to do
just let it be
i dont want to think any further
cos it'll just hurts
Izaalee. says (12:59 AM):
and im all weak now
Johanna says (1:00 AM):
hmmm. relax dear. don't think about it anymore then
Izaalee. says (1:01 AM):
yea..
Johanna says (1:11 AM):
you okay? hm
sorry
Izaalee. says (1:15 AM):
yea im ok
Izaalee. says (1:16 AM):
im still surprised that he called me
haha
and touched, by how he had comforted and clarified with me
Johanna says (1:16 AM):
just? hm
Izaalee. says (1:16 AM):
nono, just now
Johanna says (1:16 AM):
ohhh. h
hm yeahh
Johanna says (1:17 AM):
i guess he's probably busy thats why
Izaalee. says (1:20 AM):
yea, could be. hmm.
Izaalee. says (1:22 AM):
its going to hurt real deep if he's on joanna's side, going against me, and just backstabbing me
Johanna says (1:22 AM):
hmm of course
but i dont think he will dear.
i mean.. why would he?
Izaalee. says (1:24 AM):
yea, maybe he would just tell me or wont entertain me if he hates me and not to be bothered clarifying and comforting me just now.
though im still having the thought that theyre planning something behind my back
cos joanna's like that
she everytime use jason's name or jason himself when it comes to wanting me go her way
Izaalee. says (1:25 AM):
which is why, im still thinking this way
that is, shes using jason to get infos from me
Johanna says (1:25 AM):
really. hm how did she use him?
Izaalee. says (1:33 AM):
like once, she got no money and she said she had borrowed jason's and she said it was jason's last money and shes not supposed to use it all. she knows that im the type who gives in easily especially when it comes to love, jason that is. and so i thought she was telling the truth so i told her to use my money first and return jason's. at first she said no need , but after some time she decided to use mine
Izaalee. says (1:34 AM):
then in the later part of the day, she wanted to text jason. cos she was using her new phone and jason had a new number but she cant recall the number. so i was like "thought you had msged jason to ask for the money? then how come now you dont have his number?"
and she said "he msged me. ive deleted his msg"
i was dumb lah at that time, i just believed her
Izaalee. says (1:35 AM):
but my type of a person is, i will keep thinking about it or some time it'll just cross my mind and i'll get the truth behind the i-didnt-know-it-was-a-lie.
Izaalee. says (1:36 AM):
because the day before we went out, joanna and i had msged jason.
whenever jason reply joanna, he'll reply me. or reply me first then joanna.
Izaalee. says (1:37 AM):
so i began to think, it cannot be. jason never msg me how come jason msg joanna. moreover the night before we went out, we got home at 12am? and the next day we met at 11am?
so cant be jason had replied joanna after 12am
lights out at 10pm
and cant be jason msged joanna before 11am. cos his free only at 12pm
so conclusion is, jason didnt reply joanna
and joanna actually didnt ask jason for money
Izaalee. says (1:38 AM):
you get the whole story?
and jason replied us like 3 days after we msged him.
cos he went out field
k i dont know whats its called
the one camping in the jungle
yea
so when they camp in the jungle
he's not allowed to bring phone
Johanna says (1:38 AM):
hmm outfield correct hm
Izaalee. says (1:39 AM):
yeah
seee
i can be detective/lawyer
ehehehehehe
Johanna says (1:39 AM):
lol!! wtfh
hmm okay i get what you mean hahahaha
Johanna says (1:40 AM):
but jason and joanna close or not
Izaalee. says (1:40 AM):
yup
Johanna says (1:40 AM):
hmmz
Izaalee. says (1:40 AM):
i think?
why?
they went to the same school before. and they're in the same clan.
Izaalee. says (1:41 AM):
but from what i see, since hes now in camp, its like, joanna is as close to jason as the rest of her siblings
but im not too sure
why?
Johanna says (1:44 AM):
huh in the same clan?
Izaalee. says (1:44 AM):
group of friends
they both share friends
and in the same group
Johanna says (1:45 AM):
ohhhh.
hmm. okay understood
so should be quite close too
Izaalee. says (1:45 AM):
back then
yea
what has them being close got to do with anything?
Johanna says (2:45 AM):
hm well if they're close then they'll tend to talk more, no?
Izaalee. says (2:46 AM):
hahaha. when jason's home, he dont usually talk. hes like glued in front of the comp and no one can disturb him
unless they had texted while jas in camp



I love you Dear. Thank you for trying your best to not make me think too much. But I'm all weak. Sigh.

I seriously don't know what to believe in and what to feel. I want to be happy and not cry to sleep anymore because Jason had convinced me that he's staying as my friend but then again, I'm still thinking that he's up to no good, together with the rest, behind my back.

HOW!?